Friday, February 5, 2010
this one's for charis.
And now, a confession.
Today was one of those days where I feel like a downright crappy mother, housekeeper, and human being. Maybe it was the rain, maybe it was hormones, maybe it was the starlit dance of the planets spinning through the heavens, but the end result was simply that I felt like a complete failure.
Funny thing is, not a single thing has changed since yesterday, when I felt invincible and manic.
Luckily, my brain can remind my heart of this discrepancy, and my fractious 3 year old can go spend the night with her grandmother, and my teething baby can go to sleep, and I can reclaim my humanity, bit by bit, through words and paint and wisps of smoke on wooden board.
Wait. Why are you still here?
I'm out of art for the night.
Oh, you want another confession?
I really like the video for Lady Gaga's song Bad Romance.
I think it's just as pretty and weird and random as the videos of the early 1980's. I like it just as much as Total Eclipse of the Heart. I don't know a thing about that chick, but she's fascinating.
Seriously, go to bed.